True intimacy with the Lord is being completely open, vulnerable, and exposed. It’s a lot like finding love. At first you pretend to have it all together based on the assumption that, “Who would want filthy rags”? Soon you realize that He’s never leaving you, and never forsaking you. You learn that He is the same today as He was yesterday. The Lord already knew you, because He knitted you together in your mother’s womb, but you adjust to Him and let Him in. You come to Him with some good things but underneath you’re incomplete, lacking, unqualified, broken, desperate, in need of truth, in need of saving, and longing for something real. He meets you right where you are, springing life into your belly and causing you to want to be better. It’s okay to get convicted. You realize it’s not about your feelings, but He sees a seed within you. A love like this can only be fruitful when we maintain our garden and put in the work. Work can hurt, but our labor will never be done in vain. I’m thankful to be in a relationship with the Father. A father who sees my inner being, meets me right where I am, encourages me, empowers me, and always sees me as better. I’m thankful for the light coming into the darkness and shining light on the things I didn’t really want to talk about. It was uncomfortable and at the moment I didn’t know I needed it, but I really did. I’ve been opened to a love with someone who loves me to the fullest, although I’m nothing but filthy rags.